I am lost… weak… sad…

Damn I miss you!! Is that what you want to hear?

I am lost… weak… sad…

Where are you?

Who’s with you?

How are you doing?

What are you doing?

When we will talk again?

Do you still remember me?

Are you having problems?

…Why does it have to be like this?

I HATE our situation.

Absurd.

Stupid.

Shallow.

You can say all that to me. I don’t care.

You’re one of the best people I have met.

You have been a bestfriend to me even just for a while… 

And now you’re gone.

Damn!!! I miss you… you’re so near yet so far…

temporary hatred…

I don’t know how to express what I feel right now… I feel like I’m a worthless, hollow, senseless, dishonorable person…

people think of me as a despicable, shameful, degraded girl… "it’s just a joke jenz…" no it’s not!!! You won’t say it unless you’re thinking about it.. damn I’m being so sensitive again..

yes! I took it seriously.. if that’s what will satisfy you.. I never thought that of all people you will think of and see me that way… hey,, you don’t even know the half of what’s happening to me…

you’re judging me by what you want to see… I’ve been explaining myself,, defending what I need to defend but you never tried to listen and you never believed me… now I’m so sick of it!!! for you, everything is a laughing matter -a joke…

God, sometimes I want to skip classes ‘coz I’ll see those people again…

I wish, time would pass swiftly, that this period would soon end …

With that, I’ll be able to have freedom and happiness…

hppfff…

i hate this feeling…

i can’t eat much but i’m hungry . i can’t sleep early though i’m really sleepy. i can’t stop myself from checkin my phone eventhough there’s no new message or even a call. and there’s much more that i can’t really explain..  what the hell is this?   

pag-alis….

pag-alis

by: barbie almalbis

Kung wala ka nang gustong sabihin
Wag ka nang tumingin ng ganyan
Kung bukas, ako’y kalilimutan

Sana

naman ngayo’y di mo na isipin ako’y tawagan

[refrain]
At habang may panahon,
Wag na nating hintayin
Lumalim pa
At masakit na’ng damdamin

[chorus]
Ang pag-alis ng iyong liwanag
Na gumising sa mahabang gabi
Ika’y langit ngunit baka masanay at di kayanin pa
Ang pag-alis

Kung wala ka nang gustong marinig
Ako’y aalis at mananahimik
Ang kahapon na nais kong limutin

Sana

naman huwag nang manumbalik at bigyang pansin

[repeat refrain]

[repeat chorus]

message for 2nu23…

Hey classmates!! You might wonder why I posted my message instead of saying this to you personally on our class party… well, I just don’t want to cry in front of our professors… anyway here it is…

         The last four months was my longest, craziest and happiest four months of my life. It was the only period of my life that brought a great change to my individuality.

            Before, I never thought that I would meet people that can accept me for who I am but 2nu23 proved me wrong.

            I didn’t know how to be myself in front other people and of the class but 2nu23 unleashed the real jenzel.

            I didn’t know that I had the capabilities to reach my dreams but 2nu23 made me realize that I have enough to reach it.

            I am not a strong person but 2nu23 gave me the strength to stand and fight for what is right.

            I am coward but 2nu23 gave me courage to walk even in the darkest days of my life.

            I easily give up but 2nu23 pushed me until I reach the top.

            I didn’t know how to value friends but 2nu23 taught me that friends are the most important strangers in our life.

            I didn’t know how to trust others but 2nu23 made me trust them with my life.

I never thought that I would like a section this much but 2nu23 made me realize that I didn’t just like the section – I LOVE the section that I would fight for them ’til the end.

Thank you!!! that’s all I can say.. there’s nothing more that i could ask for…

           I bought the miniature bus because it reminds me of our section… "party bus" tayo lng meron nyan… all of our memories is placed inside the bus…

I’m feeling bad thinking that this will be the end of 2nu23 days…

2nu23’s last day…

         October 20, 2006 was the best yet the most heartbreaking day of my 2nu23 life… it was our class party… we decided to conduct this event to end our semester memorable, to recall all the happiest, craziest and down moments of our class…

         It was indeed a success we had kuya Eva, sir Arguson, and maam Cabel as our visitors and of course the presence of our beloved professors Mr. Ronald Trieste and Mr. Potenciano Uy won’t be forgotten. Although some of my special friends were not present, I tried my best to enjoy the party and fortunately, my other classmates didn’t let me down. One of the parts of the program was the "treasure giving" where we should give a message for the class and our adviser and leave something to serve as a treasure for us. It was quite emotional, for some of us did let their tears flow on their faces.

         However, I felt sorry for I didn’t give whole myself when my turn to speak came coz I don’t want to cry… sorry… I should have said the real feelings I have inside of me… I LOVE 2NU23!!! 

         Now I know it’s too late for regrets…

i love 2nu23

ONE THING WE HAVE

by: jenzel añonuevo

We are only common students.

We pass and fail subjects we are taking.

We love to speak but we are the one who listens.

But why people stop us from achieving?

We laugh a lot but we also cry.

We have our ups and downs of our lives.

We fall but still continue to fly.

But why people stab us with their knives?

We are not perfect we also make mistakes.

We’re just true because we hate fakes.

We may look bad but we have other side.

But why intrigues don’t want to subside?

Why is this happening to us?

Is there anyone we can trust?

Why do they keep pulling us down?

They always want to see us in a frown.

Oh! Yeah! People are envy.

We create things they can’t even foresee.

We have happiness they won’t feel.

So they make things such a big deal.

Hey! People stop hating!

Nothing can keep us from smiling,

because we are full of love.

And bet that’s the one thing you won’t have!

i was inspired by my section 2nu23,,

i love them so much…. i’ll miss you guys!!

…HE and plado…

pLaDo

Back then I met HE;

A guy I never thought that I would greet.

Clock moves as fast as a breeze;

I see HE not like as they see.

What is this? I’m going insane,

Can’t explain this feeling of chain

Stop this I know I should.

I’ll ignore him as much as I could.

But HE is there sometimes and true,
I’m captured in the valley of feeling blue

I hope HE would take my hand and bring me back

Before my whole self crack.

Too bad I think his eyes have its apple;

That would make his stomach tumble.

Meaning I should go on solo;

With silent tears on my pillow.

Who is that guy? No one knows,

Except I who calls him plado.

                              -jenzel a.

song for him… for you only, HE…

Once In a Lifetime…
Freestyle

Been thinkin bout you baby
And i don’t know what to do
All i think about is you
Seems everything around me
Things i’ve never understood
They all make sense when i’m with you.

~refrain~
Oh, i’ve heard it all before
Finding so called love then you leave it behind
(oohh..) But now i feel so sure
I’ll listen to my heart this time
(so i’ll lay it on the line/ put my heart before my mind)

~chorus~
(oh) I know that what i’ve found is once in a lifetime
(and) i know there’s no way out
Coz its once in a lifetime

I’ve always been so lonely
No one there for me to hold
And every night was just so cold
Oh don’t get me wrong i’ve been around
But i’ve resigned myself to thinking
Mine is just another story often told

(repeat refrain then chorus)

~coda~
It’s not like i’m runnin’ outta time
I’m takin’ everything in stride
It’s just i never thought i’d find
What make me change my mind

(repeat chorus)

damn.. i hate to admit it but its true…

a piece of me…

Earlier this evening i’ve heard Mr. Belmonte (don’t know who he is…) reciting the cadet’s honor code…

then it struck into the deepest part of my individuality… it felt that a piece of me that has been wandering in the wilderness has been found… I had forgotten it since I graduated from high school… since I left a significant responsibility given to me for a short-lasting time…

seems I buried a vital thing in my life…

I feel so worthless… it only means that I had lived my past days,, months,, even a year being such a brainless, stupid, mendacious, a complete RUBBISH being…

LIE,,,

CHEAT,,,,

and the like…

I had committed all these dim-witted things…

How can I forget it??… I had memorized it by-heart back then…

I was deceived by the fleeting,, ephemeral things around me…

I totally regret it…

sorry my valued mentor,, I had failed you…

sorry my dear society,, you had a citizen like me…

sorry to myself,, where is my virtue?

Now,, i’ll try to patch things up for those I had done…

and once again try to embrace the honor code enthusiastically…

“A Cadet must not lie, cheat or tolerate any such occurrences.”