my babz,,

I don’t know how to start this… it happened so fast…

Been with you in a very short time, then I never thought that that would come to this… I had fun in the last few days spending time with you, really I did. I wished and still wishing it wouldn’t end… remember I told you this “although I know you would soon live… but still… I’m risking myself here… if you only knew how hard it is for me to be in this situation.” All of that are true… and I’m still holding onto that. Yah, maybe I am that stupid and all. But I know that I can’t rush myself to end everything right now. It would be much harder if I do that especially I know that you’re still around. I’m thinking that I could just make the most while you’re still here. And then let God decide what to do about us.

I miss the old you. Joke around even though it’s the corniest joke ever! Laugh whenever I made simple mistake. Mimic the way I talk. You hold my hands in a way I feel you care and that you don’t want to let go of me. And other things that I myself don’t want to let go just yet…