temporary hatred…

I don’t know how to express what I feel right now… I feel like I’m a worthless, hollow, senseless, dishonorable person…

people think of me as a despicable, shameful, degraded girl… "it’s just a joke jenz…" no it’s not!!! You won’t say it unless you’re thinking about it.. damn I’m being so sensitive again..

yes! I took it seriously.. if that’s what will satisfy you.. I never thought that of all people you will think of and see me that way… hey,, you don’t even know the half of what’s happening to me…

you’re judging me by what you want to see… I’ve been explaining myself,, defending what I need to defend but you never tried to listen and you never believed me… now I’m so sick of it!!! for you, everything is a laughing matter -a joke…

God, sometimes I want to skip classes ‘coz I’ll see those people again…

I wish, time would pass swiftly, that this period would soon end …

With that, I’ll be able to have freedom and happiness…

hppfff…

i hate this feeling…

i can’t eat much but i’m hungry . i can’t sleep early though i’m really sleepy. i can’t stop myself from checkin my phone eventhough there’s no new message or even a call. and there’s much more that i can’t really explain..  what the hell is this?